This week has been a muddled week of pain, sleeplessness and a lot of emotional turmoil. It’s been hard to try to undo certain learned behaviors, this one has been the hardest, not putting others before me. This one had been especially difficult because it goes against every lesson my own mother has taught since toddlerhood, plus I love taking care of people. The other tough lesson has been the one to grit you teeth and bear it, this line of thinking is anathema in cancer land. I may be their worst patient simply because I had been so contrarian about pain management. My doctors, lovely people, all of them, must be so weary trying to convince me as patiently and gently as possible, that taking pain medication is simply a matter of fact part of my daily ritual and there is no judgement. They are, of course, right, I’m sure they are taking their time to explain everything to me because they care and have respect for me, they want me to understand that this pain management is of such utter importance that it is worth not only my time, but their time as well, to engage me into understanding narcotics.
I am getting tired and I hope I made sense, this narcotics business can get tricky if you get my drift LOL
Take your meds or I will come over and bop you Laurie!
My dear Jules I don’t want to get bopped so I promise you that I will take my meds! Hugs Jules xxxxooooo
The Laughing Housewife said:
And I’ll help! Don’t be a martyr 😦 There’s really no need.
Wonderful news about the cancer breakthrough yesterday. I know it won’t affect your treatment but it’s a start.
You got my excitement for cancer treatment exactly right, everyday in some country, you have all sorts working on separate items on cancer and it is exciting in the process. 😀
I can understand your feeling of duty and hesitation, but you’ll be taking care of them all soon enough. It’s okay to take a break and take your pain meds. It’s too cold this weekend to do much else. Cheers!
Thanks Chris! I will be cuddling with the puppies and the husband on the couch and that is perfect
I like this one. I can hear you.
I’m so happy you can hear me 😀