Today was supposed to be our French Club meeting at the Porter Memorial Library, but my friend who started the club called me at the Library while I was waiting, to let me know that she was ill with a migraine and everyone else was a no show. I was disappointed on the surface but deep down inside, I was quite relieved because I still haven’t recuperated from the weekend. I woke up this morning just as exhausted as I was yesterday. I really wasn’t in the mood to speak French or to help others with the attempts at speaking full phrases, my brain isn’t quite up to snuff today. If others had shown up, I would have put on a brave face and it was really nice to not have to do that.
I can’t wait for me to get back to feeling like me; this intense exhaustion is tiring. I know that my general practitioner Dr. Muellner thinks that I might have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and I should just be patient and wait for me to get rested and feel better, but there are things to do, weeds to pull, more goodies to bake for the Historical Society and it is hard when you are lagging in energy.
I look forward to bedtime tonight, I am hoping that the fog will lift and the lethargy will fade, it would be nice for tomorrow to be energizing even if for just a little bit.
laurieanichols 
NO NO NO! You MUST NOT do any work if it is suspected you have ME – you will make yourself much worse. Please believe me when I tell you this – I have lived with the Hub’s ME for 17 years and I know what I am talking about.
Did you not read my post on Sunday? Do you want to live like that forever? Listen to me and listen to your doctor.
Pushing yourself is the absolute worst thing you can do when you have ME – your life needs to be paced, like a plateau, never doing too much; otherwise, it’s a rollercoaster: up/down/up/down – you feel okay so you catch up with all those odd jobs, work too hard, then spend weeks in bed, recovering. Then you feel a little better so you catch up on all those odd jobs, then spend weeks in bed…
If you suspect ME then you MUST pace yourself, only do as much as you are able. The Hub didn’t do that and his case is now so severe, he is unlikely to ever recover. That means being able to do almost nothing for the rest of his life. Do you want that?
PLEASE listen to me about this.
You are such a good and caring friend. I feel as if none of the doctors are taking me seriously when I tell them about my constant feeling of severe exhaustion and that it is all in my head. My hubby gets frustrated because he doesn’t understand why they just can’t fix me. I think that I am probably in some semi state of denial. I completely understand how the word lazy can become so heavy and emotional; I am not lazy. I think that I understand why the Hub pushed himself to the out limits, it is so hurtful to be made to feel as if you are nothing but a lazy person with no ambition. You are only as good as to what you have accomplished lately and if there isn’t a next project, well what are you waiting for. That type of pressure must have been so difficult for the Hub, I am so glad that he has you and the boys. I am so glad that I have a friend like you. 🙂
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Don’t listen to anyone or anything except your body (and me, of course).
But of course :D.