The hardest decision

What's the hardest decision you've ever had to make? Why?

I am not going to answer this correctly because I've decided to write about some bad decisions that I have made over the years. One of the worst decisions that I had ever made was to start smoking each and every time that I had stopped. The hardest decision that I ever made was to finally stop once and for all; the hardest and the best decision that I had ever made for myself. Smoking is the most dangerous habit to ever take up, getting rid of the nicotine slave master is painful and arduous.

There are two other bad decisions that I had made earlier in my life. When I was going through the process of gaining weight after hitting a dangerous low weight of 87 lbs, I didn't try to seek help from experts in anorexia nervosa. I should not have waited for my mother to take the initiative; I should have done it on my own; I self diagnosed myself as being anorexic so I knew that the disease was bigger than what I could realistically handle on my own. I didn't do myself any favors by punishing myself through denying myself therapeutic treatment.

Another bad decision that I made at my own expense was when I chose to not attend the award ceremony given in honor of those who were awarded the Fellows Award at New York University for being in the top 10% of the graduating class. My mother couldn't attend and I let my hurt feelings get in my the way of celebrating my own milestone for myself. I deserved to celebrate myself for all of my hard work and academic achievements and I chose not to; a bad decision on my part.

These decisions are valuable life lessons that I use to try to guide my daughter in making better choices than I did at her age. I simply share and hope that these little nuggets sit in the back of her head and perhaps she will mind them a little bit.

Daily prompt: It’s all about me

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blogging, meaning, postaday2013, title, writing

Explain how you choose your blog’s title and what it means to you.

I didn’t choose a title for my blog when I started writing because I wasn’t really thinking of a blog per se, but rather a writing area, replacing the traditional diary or journal. I never thought that my writing would attract readers, I was writing for writing’s sake and to exercise my inner anxieties. On the other hand, my blog’s title, laurieanichols, is precisely what my blog is all about, me. So in that vein my blog’s title is completely apropos. It’s my blog and I can write what I want to, whine if I want to, complain if I want to, more or less do what I want to with my blog.

I have found that in the past two years I have wanted to share more and more of myself with my newfound community of WordPress friends. The relationships that I have built over these various posts that I have written in response to prompts and organically generated have become very important to me. This is the best gift that writing has given me, an online fellowship with other writers from all around the world. Moreover, the letting go of excess stress and anxiety just by writing it down is a blessing in and of itself. This is the best thing that I have ever done for myself, well this and walking; another form of therapy albeit physical therapy.

I have another blog which I did title, A Progressive’s Thoughts, where I write about my political thoughts in the form of comments I make on articles and blog posts that I read on the Huffington Post. The title that I chose is precisely what it says, it’s my thoughts on political questions and situations and I consider myself a progressive, hence A Progressive’s Thoughts; pretty self-explanatory.

I’m happy with my two blogs, they are my outlets for my thoughts and opinions and a place that I get to interact with wonderful people who are my friends.