What am I putting off and why haven’t I done it yet? I tend to be a procrastinator by nature so of course I have quite a few things that I put off but they are run of the mill everyday things. Last year I finally went to the dentist, that was one item that I had put off for years. Do I regret procrastinating on that one. Yes and yes and yes. It was extremely unpleasant, not excruciating but if I had bitten the bullet and gone sooner it would have been less painful physically and for the pocketbook. Of course I had reasons to put it off; we didn’t have dental insurance, my teeth are not bothering me, and my teeth are ultra sensitive to drilling. Actually that is true and this is why; I was diagnosed at least 13 years ago with basil cell carcinoma on my upper lip which of course was devastating to me, I was only 29 at the time. I had wonderful doctors who cut out the cancer and repaired my lip beautifully and while they were doing their work, cauterization of the lip was necessary which I didn’t feel externally because my lip had been numbed but while they were zapping my lip, I managed to ask why are my teeth getting zapped? It was so painful, nothing they could do about numbing the teeth so I endured it but it forever put the fear of the drill in my head, heart, everywhere. But that is not a reason to forgo the dentist and I am better about it now. However, I am still guilty of putting off another important health related test. My annual mammogram for 2010 still needs to be scheduled. I have been forgetting to call since September when I went for my annual check up. There is no excuse, it’s free and it is an important diagnostic tool for early detection. I know what I am in for, I have already had my baseline mammogram, it was uncomfortable maybe painful at times but manageable. It is a cancer that I am really frightened of; so why am I behaving so foolishly? I know I need to get it done, I’ll call now. Just off the phone and I am scheduled for this Friday.
I have been really enjoying taking the time to write everyday, maybe not post everyday, but definitely working on it everyday and this topic pushed me to grab the bull by the horns and do another thing that is beneficial to my health. Writing and doing it as part of my everyday responsibilities has given me a new sense of accomplishment separate from my duties as wife and mother. I am accomplishing something for me and I feel very good about it, today is a good day.